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After the verbal nuggets, i gotta rush for a leaders' miting.... it was supposed to start at 2.30pm sharp.... but i was late due to my verbal nuggets de duty... when i reached there, the miting has alreadi started, and mr thomas tan was alreadi toking....
And the boring miting went on..........
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There was a very strange thing that until now i still couln't figure out.... Since the start of the year, i've participated in quite a no. of events... Love Fiesta, Orientation 2, JPS, Westzone Camp etc. when eva the teachers gave their briefing or de-briefing, be it mr simon leow, mr thomas tan, mr ng eong sian or miss kimberly chow, i've never once in my life fallen asleep..... there's onli one exception.... mr chua ren cheng.... every tym when he brief us or when he's giving debrief, i'll some how fall asleep 1.... no matter how hard i tried to keep myself awake... it's not that i'm tired or wad... I juz will some how fall asleep......
Maybe, wad eva that is coming out from his mouth are all lullaby..... Hahax...
*Well, sry mr chua!!!*
After the miting, i got another miting... and that is the E-Club miting.... i was late... however, i've gt valid reason.... thus, i wasn't punished or wad so eva... today's.... i mean yesterday's miting, we are having an election for the next EXCO team...... all of my goody fwends are nominated for some posts...
Jasmine: President
Yanxi: Vice-President
Secretary: Kong Xing Yi
Chief/Assistant Finance Officer: Jaime
Of cuz, they aren't the onli ones that are nominated.... there were oso other e-clubbers that were nominated.... If u realize, they are all girls....
Me?? of cuz i wud like to b nominated too.... that's y i tried to hint my fwends.... i told them dis....
"Wow! All girls huh..... Girl Power arx???"
Of cuz.... they replied something like "no one nominate u mehxx???"
Well, dis is something that we can't force others to do it can we? after all ,it concerns the future of this organization.... Of cuz people wud wan to choose some one that they trust!!
Hahaxx... but then my friend all nominated me for the next position,... that is the Chief Publicity Officer...
But i acted that i dun wan it and oso acted shy.... but deep down inside my hraet, i was roaring with laughter!!! HAHAXX!!!!! Who wounln't be happy???
Of cuz, i'm not the onli one that was nominated for that job... my PAE, i.e. my first 3 months, de classmate was nominated too!!! Well, den we had a kind of "rally" that we promote ourselves in order to get more votes... i think that i did quite well, but Jin Hui, my friend, did not do too badly either... I rally do wich to get that post... Well, if, touch wood, i did not get the post and jin hui got it, i wud definitely give her my deepest heartfelt congratulations......
Atfer everything has ended, i send jasmine to her tuition place in JE and after that, i meet up wif my bestie, sha, for dinner at JP... Well, u shud have guessed it, we went to Ichiban again.... but dis time, we ordered mush lesser food.... cuz the both of us are broke... LOLX!!
Well, that's about it.... my day yesterday... =p
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Well, let's tok about today....
I really dunno why.... but i'm just very tired today....
I woke up late, at 7.10am.... Thus, i was almost late for school...
Den i proceed for my first lesson, which is math tutorial... i couldn't help it bt almost dozing off.... Next was math lecture.... tat 1 was power.... i totally fell asleep for a moment... But i'm kind of glad that i'm nt the onli 1.... my two friends at both of my side are sleeping too.... HAHAX....
Finally, i pulled myself together thru math lecture.... Finally, it was time for break....
Due to the stupid time table that right after the break is Civics period, the whole J1 cohort are having the same break together... Haix..... thus, during dis break, it is impossible to get a table n have a good meal...Therefore, i juz go straight to the hall for our civics lesson....
Today's civics lesson was super boring larxx!!!! Thus i shall skip the details...
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After civics was PW, followed by GP.... today's GP was fun!!! We had a "hang-man" game.... but the words are not juz any words.... the words that we are supposed to guess are all figures of speech.... we have words like literal language, alliterations, onomatopoeia, simile, idiom, metaphor, personification yade yade yade.........
It was really fun... this is the first time that i enjoyed GP so much!!! I do really hope that Mr Soh, my GP tutor, can make use of this kind of methods to conduct his lesson, so as to make us engage us to the lesson more...
*Good Job Mr Soh!!!! Keep Up The Good Work!!!*
After Gp was another boring lesson.... Chinese.... More over it was for one and a half hours.....
And guess wad? i fell asleep again.....
Whoooooooooo!!!!!! Wad a sleeping beauty i am... lolx.... Next time i might have to rely in caffeine to keep my awake le.... but i really dun like the taste of coffee.....
Hmmmmm..... maybe, i'll rely on tea instead....
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Every time when i listen to Stefanie Sun's 我怀念的。。。。。。
I can't help but to feel depressed.... Sometimes to the extent that i will even cry....
I think that the lyrics really describes me......
I asked why that gal send me an SMS......
But why didn't u explain and lowered ur head in silent......
I should believe that u really loved me, and not just fooling me......
Or is it that u do not want to salvage anything anymore?
I wanted to asked why am i no longer ur source of happiness......
But why did i juz smile n say that i understand instead?
Pride always drag people, and twist the love between people.......
Pretended to know is because being afraid the truth is too hurtful......
Being pathetic feels mush more worst than losing......
*Wad i miss is the times where there's nothing we dun tok about......
Wad i miss is the times that we used to dreamt together......
Wad i miss is the urge to hug u even after every quarrel......
I remembered my birthday that year......
And also that song......
Remembered that starry sky......
The tightest right hand......
The warmest chest......
Who remembered?
Who has forgotten?*
Wad i miss is those speechless feelings......
Wad i miss is those fullest passion......
Wad i miss is ur urge for me to forgive u n hug until i feel the pain......
I remembered u r behind......
Also remembered that i trembled......
Remembered the feeling that oozes out......
The prettiest fireworks......
The longest hug......
Who loved too freely?
Who dwell too faraway?
Who took away my heart?
Who forgot that that is a promise?
Who walked away alone?
Who had forgotten to look at me?
Who has made love depressing?
Who has forgotten to give u gentleness?
I still have the urge to love u......
I remembered the birthday that year......
also remembered that piece of song......
Remembered that starry sky......
The tightest right hand.....
The warmest chest....
I released my hand......
I gave up my seat......
I acted suave......
Who knows how unbearable i felt?
I loved too much............
Therefore i.............
Did not cry.........
Did not say anything.........
Pay attention to the Chorus.... the ** part...
Every time when i listen to this song, i couldn't help but think of the times when i was still in the Student's Council......
I couldn't help it, but to think about my friends there and the stuffs that we do together... When i was still in the council, we plan for everything together.... we gossiped, we laughed, we cried, we cheered, we danced, we ate, we slept.... we did almost everything together...
Now that i'm out of the council, ther are somethings that they definitely cannot tell me... some of the confidential stuff.... Every day, they are so busy.... I can hardly see them... Our relationship has alreadi changed.... Very much different from before.... Even when i saw them, we did nothing more than saying "Hi"s and "Bye"s. We are no longer as close as we used to be...
I really missed those days... Now, i dun have any close friends at all.... In the past, every time after school, we wud always gather together in the canteen, have lunch, study together.... During break times, if we have common breaks, we wud definitely sit together gossip... But now, i no longer get to enjoy dis kind of "luxury"... Every day, i go home super early...
I really miss my friends.... my bestie is no longer in JC... My council friends are like super busy to entertain me... My classmates have their own click... Sometimes when i stick to my classmates, i really feel like one freaking leech lar... Nw, i'm juz another loner... A nobody... I really miss the time where people all crowd around me... i really miss that kind of fame......
Back during the Love Fiesta period, i clearly remembered wad Mr Simon Leow has taught us... He said we muz dare to dream, and dream big... Only with that kind of dreams, it will den spur us on to go and strive for our goals...... When i'm still in the council, we often dreamt together.... For projects like the Council camp, the Council investiture, Orientation 2... etc.... We really dreamt... WE aim high!!! So even if our dreams never came thru, the result is still some where near... i really miss those days............. I missed the days where we worked super hard for the different projects... When we were praised, all were praised together..... When anyone of us were being 'tekan', all of us will be 'tekan' together... i really enjoy working in that team.... The unity that we had... Even though it was really tough... but when we persevere thru, the smiles on each others' faces... they were unforgettable... I really enjoyed those days... and now, i miss them......
I remembered that during the planning of projects, we often have a lot of disagreements... And thus, we quarreled a lot... I remembered that time...... It was during the planning of the Council Camp... That time i was in the manpower committee, and my I/C was Elwin... I just dun agree with the way he worked... he kept keeping all the jobs to himself.... He gave the reason that he's afraid to stress us too much... But we work as a team..... therefore, i couldn't take it and trash out with him... The other time was during orientation 2...... i was in the SCDC committee... That time, i remembered that i argued with someone from from the games committee... Even though we dun see the same idea, but when it comes to the end of the camp, we still hugged together and cried.... the bad memories between us were all thrown to the back... Especially during the JJ Nite... We were up on the stage, holding each other very tightly... As we sang those heart-wrenching songs, tears rolled down all of our cheeks...... I really missed those days..... I miss my friends...... i miss my team mates......
Every time during camps, or whenever we stayed overnight in school. There is always the time whereby we sit in the field during night time and stare into the skies... Sometimes we manages to catch a clear sky and thus managed to see some of the stars... Sometimes, the sky is overcast... Although we did not manage to see any stars, but the way we sat in the field and relax... it really feels great... Though nobody talked, but we can feel the appreciation we had for each other... the silent was awkward... but it really feel nice... there isn't a need to communicate... but we know wad each other is thinking exactly... all of us hoped that the project that we are working on will turn out great... cuz each and everyone of us has put in 200% worth of our efforts... Those days are really memorable... i'll never in my life forget them...
By any chance if there is still projects that we can do together, i'll definite go... Every day, i went to sch eagerly, hoping that the teachers will ask for help for some projects... But i'm were deceiving myself... Deep down in my heart, i know that this kind of chance will never come by anymore.... Even if there is, it will never be the same as before anymore...... My bestie is no longer here to join into the fun anymore.... the "close" friends will never be in the same team as me anymore... B'cos they are all in the students' council... They will definitely be in the planning committee.... even if i join, the most i can onli be in the team that executes their plans..... It's impossible for things to go back the state they were anymore...... If onli i could turn back time...
I MISS EVERYONE!!!
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Strangers before, a world apart.
We barely notice one another.
Til angels of fate, in this heavenly place.
Brought us together through joy and laughter.
I hold you close,
I hold you near.
It may not be forever.
But when I have to let you go,
My heart it hurts me so.
You turn around,
You walked away,
And tears rolled down my cheeks.
When moments turn into memories,
To memories we'll relieve...
Signing off,
Zheyuan.
